Sunday, January 19, 2014


Today I learned a valuable lesson. Don't offer forgiveness unless it's asked for because it won't be appreciated by the one you're attempting to forgive and my heart is breaking because of it. I've lost beloved family members because I made a mistake and offered forgiveness for passed hurts that I guess weren't worth my being hurt over. And I don't know how to fix it. I don't know what to do and my heart is crushed because of my apparent stupidity.

Lord, forgive me for messing up, for hurting those I love, for letting my own feelings get in the way. I'm so sorry.

Monday, January 13, 2014

Staying in the Word is so important!!

A couple of months ago a number of people in our church came to the conclusion that things in the church were not as they should be and decided to join new flocks- so to speak- our family included. And while I absolutely adore the majority of the people in our old church, and I miss them fiercely, I know that it was something that was necessary for the spiritual health of our family. However, finding a new church where I feel as welcome and nourished has been tough and I'm anxious for the Lord to lead me where He wants me.

However, because I've not been in church regularly and not been in the Word as I should be, I'm feeling out of sorts and my spirit is homesick and hungry.

So last week I recommitted to be in the Word every single day and I have been and already I feel better. Already, in just a few days, I'm feeling the peace that only God can provide seeping back into my soul, soothing my spirit, reconnecting me to the One who knows what I need. And what can be better than that?


Our next step is finding a new church where we can sit under the teaching and guidance of a God fearing, Bible teaching pastor. My heart is with the children and I desperately miss the children I was teaching each week at our old church so hopefully we can find a church that needs help in the children's department. They were such great kids- even the ones that were difficult to love, I loved them anyway and I miss them so much.

So, brothers and sisters, please pray with me for a new church home. And don't forget to stay in the Word!

Saturday, January 11, 2014

Disagreement = Hate?

A few days ago someone accused me of hating Obama and being racist because I disagree with his policies. I've also been accused of hating homosexuals because I disagree with their lifestyle. I've been accused of hating the victims of gun crimes because I disagree with the push for gun control.

I would appear that I am just full of hate...and yet, I don't hate anyone. Since when does disagreeing with someone or something equate to hate?

I do not hate Obama. I don't know him well enough as a person to have an opinion either way about him. I do, however, understand his policies and see how he's doing things in the office to which he was elected, and I disagree with him. I don't think he's governing this country in a way that is beneficial to the people as a whole. So why does that all of a sudden mean that I hate him?

I do not hate homosexuals. I know several and respect and love them as friends and family. I do, however, believe what the Bible says about the lifestyle and believe it to be wrong. But that does not make me a hater, it makes me a human being with a right to my beliefs just like every other human being and I will not call someone a hater because they disagree with me. They have every right to do so.

I don't hate victims of gun violence, in fact it's quite the opposite. My heart breaks for them. But I also don't think that pushing gun control on law abiding citizens will stop gun violence from happening. Quite the opposite in fact. It's been shown in Chicago, Washington DC, and Detroit that gun control does not a safe city make. Those three cities are the most dangerous to live because law abiding citizens are not allowed to protect themselves from armed criminals. Criminals will get guns outside the law and harm unarmed citizens. It's a proven fact!

Our world seems to be so full of actual genuine hate so why must we make up hate where it doesn't exist? Why insist someone is a hater just because they disagree with you when you can walk around the corner and find someone who actually hates? Our government is full of corruption and evil, yet it is still among the best governments in the world. Do we need to clean it up- ABSOLUTELY! But our founding fathers knew what they were doing when they designed this government. We need to get it back to its roots.

Don't assume someone hates just because they happen to disagree with you. Open your eyes and realize that their opinion is just as valuable as yours even though its different. That is the beauty of freedom!