Today I learned a valuable lesson. Don't offer forgiveness unless it's asked for because it won't be appreciated by the one you're attempting to forgive and my heart is breaking because of it. I've lost beloved family members because I made a mistake and offered forgiveness for passed hurts that I guess weren't worth my being hurt over. And I don't know how to fix it. I don't know what to do and my heart is crushed because of my apparent stupidity.
Lord, forgive me for messing up, for hurting those I love, for letting my own feelings get in the way. I'm so sorry.